Extended Ness

It usually takes a good solid three days to recover from partying as hard as I did at Ness. I still haven't had those three days of rest. I've been on the go since two hours after I arrived home. I really need to take some time to myself, and rest soon though. I am getting tired, moody, and doing things I normally wouldn't do. I'm inflicting Chinese torture on myself, or living like normal kids my age.

After I cleaned up from Ness, I went over to Munroe's house. We watched Twilight, and hung out for the night.
We have been hanging out a lot since then, just having fun. She is a really good girl, really nice, funny, and she has a kind heart. We don’t have a whole lot in common hobby/social life wise, but it has been fine. We can just introduce each other to new things.
I'm not exactly sure how this will end. She says she doesn't want a relationship right now, but girls tend to say they don't want a relationship when they really do. Then everything gets messy, and people get hurt. I am going to take her at her word, and believe that she doesn't want one. Which is a good thing because I don't think one would work out with her.
Due to me, I am not an easy person to date, or even see. I am complicated. No matter who I am with, being with me makes them rethink what their sexuality is. She is really proud to call herself a lesbian, and I don't fit into that. I'm not willing to let people fool themselves about what I am, or am not, anymore. They have to see me as I am, and how I am going to be. I don't want to be changed so I fit with someone, so there is no way I could ask someone to change.
I've accepted that it is going to be really hard for me to find someone to have something serious with. I'm willing to wait for the right person, and situation. I'm done with being people's fling, something fun they play with til they are bored. What am I getting out of that? Nothing.
I know if I don't wait it is only going to lead to me getting hurt really badly down the line. When that person realizes that I am too complicated, or not what they wanted me to be. I'm tired of disappointing people, so I won't put myself in situations to do that anymore.
I just want someone to like me for me. Not who they think I am. Not who they want me to be. Not who they are trying to make me. Just me. I've spent way too much time getting to the point I am now in figuring out who I am to pretend to be somebody else.
I'm not looking to settle down for life, or anything. Not ready to be a penguin yet. (If you've watched Never Been Kissed, you would know that penguins mate for life.) I'm not even necessarily looking for something completely serious. I haven't been in a relationship in a long time. I need to ease into it. I just want something semi serious, a step up from the flings I've been experiencing lately. It doesn't have to be complicated. I like them. They like me. We enjoy spending time with each other. Simple.

This decision to stop the flings, and Summer of Fun comes after the craziness of Ness and the following days. It was just too much. Wing man and I fed off of each other, and we went a little over board. I began to feel like girls were being turned into a sport, and we were competing. I would never think of girls that way, or turn them into a game. Wing Man and I talked it out, and we felt the same way. We agreed to cool it, and act classier then we had been.

I'm not going to go into details of the events that went on this week. I'm a little embarrassed, and I don't want to repeat them. I promise it was nothing too crazy, just crazy for me. Don't worry, there is not going to be a video of me up on the internet anywhere.

Remember how I said I was going to lay off the straight girls? Yeah, that doesn't seem to be happening. I am attracted to them most. Their style, but mostly it is because they most accurately see me. If they are straight and attracted to me, it is because they seem me as a guy or something close to it.

There is a new girl that I am going to torture myself with. I really can't even begin to describe her without sound creepy. When I met her, I turned to the person closest to me, and told them I was going to marry her.
Yup that is even creepy for me and I pride myself on my Facebook stalking skills. Don't be judging me right now! I know you Facebook creep too, don't even deny it.
Anyway, this girl is fantastic beyond words.
Intelligent, check.
Stunningly gorgeous, check.
Fashionable, check.
Witty, check and two stars. She is so witty, and you guys know how much I love being verbally cock slapped into a stunned silence.
Goofy, check.
Enjoys comics, check.
Has mad Youtube skill, check.
I'm going to stop listing off the good qualities she has, because it could go on for a long time. I'm fairly certain this is going to be a typical Avery and a cute girl situation.
Avery thinks Girl is cute. Girl barely knows Avery exists. After being exposed to my charm Girl thinks Avery is cute.
That is usually where that situation ends.
Hopefully my charm will get me further in this situation. I should polish it, put out the good china and nice table cloth. Really try to impress her.
Really, I am happy getting smiles and laughs from girls. That is like sliding into second base for me. Throw in a blush, and I am rounding third.
I can't decide on a name for this girl yet. I will soon though.

My next post is going to be about life landmarks. I just pictured my face carved into the side of a mountain. It is coffee time, when I start hallucinating.

- Ol' Blue Eyes

Avery Eros