Birthday celebrations

Mere hours after the best present ever it was time to go out and celebrate my birthday. A 'Drink a Straight bar Gay' event was going on that night, so I decided to party at Whiskey Jacks. All the Queers/Allys wear pink, and go to a straight bar for a change. It was an okay night. I never really have a whole lot of fun at DASBG events. A football game was on, and they wouldn't turn it off! So a room full of homos who wanted to dance had to sit through a whole game. I got laughed at because I asked how many periods were in a game. I don't know football! Okay! I admit it. It just seems a bit barbaric to me, and I don't like how angry masses of people get over it. I don't dislike the sport, or sports in general. I enjoy throwing a football around with some light tackling. I played highly competive sports my whole life. I could have got a scholorship to the states because of my skill. I just dislike the mass hysteria that occurs when large amounts of money and pride become involved.
So once the game was over it was karaoke/dance time. The night started to get a bit more fun. Most everyone who attends these events has a blast, but a few of us don't as much. It is fun to experience different bars, and different music. But spending the whole night being stared/laughed at is not fun, neither is having my sex evaluated by rude groups. If you are honestly curious ask away in a polite fashion. If you are trying to be an asshole and ask really loudly to a group of people 'whether I'm a chick or a dude', I'll say something about it.
Also a person can only handle so many board shorts/dirty flip flop, wranglers/cowboy hats, combos with the background noise of grunting replays of the football game, and statements like 'A dude can't turn anywhere in this bar without seeing a fucking faggot'.
The night wasn't a complete bust, but it wasn't the best.
However, Saturday night was near-perfect.
My last birthday was a bit of a disaster due to drama, surprise! That bitch lurks everywhere! This year was different there was no drama. A group of friends and I met at a pub early in the night. A good number of people showed up, most of the people I really wanted to come did. Everyone seemed to be having fun, and got along well. I got a really nice wallet, and a gift certificate from Juliet and her sister. A couple really nice cards, full of loving words, and a little robot that dances like me.
From the pub the party made its way to Diva's for a dance party. We got there early because we didn't want to wait in line, so the dance floor was mostly empty to start. But everyone danced anyway, we all felt comfortable with each other. It was really nice. The night flew by! Dancing, hugs and laughter seems to make time speed up.

Every year I think hard about a birthday wish/goal. Last year it was; 'I am the aware, awakened Leader of my life. I will journey the path toward love, happiness and prosperity by being aware and present.' This year it was 'I wish to discover intimate, true, pure love in myself, and others. To respect, and cherish whatever form the love takes, and to be aware that every, including love, is temporary.' This comes from the awareness of this missing from my life. I have many friends and acquaintances, and I can go anywhere with the guarantee of knowing someone there. But I do not have a best friend. There are people who crush on me, but who are not intimate. I am not close enough with anyone to call up on a regular basis to cuddle and watch a movie/play video games/do nothing with. I don't have one person I can call up and pour my problems out onto, and no one does that with me. I can call up a few people for 'random fun' if I wanted too. But I have no one to cuddle with at night, and wake up next to for those profound pillow talks. So that is my goal/wish this year, I just have to trust the universe to make it happen.
I made this birthday wish on a cute purple cake made by a couple really beautiful people, Goddess, and my favourite little blondie. They even sang me happy birthday. So we (myself, and a few of my closest friends) spent the night catching up on each others lives, and eating cupcakes. It was really nice, one of those quiet nights that are always way better then going out partying.

Things with Juliet are up in the air. I really have no idea what is going on. I know my side. I’m crushin’ on her. I can’t figure out what she is thinking and feeling. She hasn’t been talking to me as much as usual, and she is hanging out with a new boy, who incidently looks/acts quite a bit like me. He is a really nice guy, so if she does like him I am glad. It is hard to tell what is going on. She does contradictory things. Example, my birthday, she kisses me then literally a few minutes later she tells me to “Go find a lady.” What?
Whatever happens I hope things don’t get weird, I would like to stay friends. I am not going to be all butt hurt over this and not want to be her friend. There are plenty of other really interesting people for me to get interested. A new motto? I think so.

I think that is where I am going to end this post. I need to find one more item to complete my Halloween costume. The search continues! I will update soon with some of my more random thoughts/events.